Until last summer, I did not know what a real anxiety attack was. I had had a few warnings before but there always seemed to be a good reason for it. We had moved 3 times in 4 years and it seemed logical to suffer from a bit of anxiety when preparing for the next move. But then it happened at the least expected moment…
During a few months, I worked with someone I like to call my body and mind coach. I learnt to breathe again and release negative energy, love myself again. After 8 months, I have learnt to cope with my anxiety. But let’s face it, it has not completely disappeared yet. The attacks do not come in so strongly anymore because I am in a better place personally, but they still happen, not every cycle but if they do, it is around ovulation time and a few days before menstruation. I know my anxiety is not grounded on anything concrete, real because I have a good life. But I have always been a bit short on self-confidence and now that my hormones start to be all over the place, it seems like it is reinforcing my weaknesses. None of the doctors I have seen so far has been willing to confirm that my anxiety attacks are linked to perimenopause. The closest to it was my coach who said it had to do with my age, the end of my reproduction time and my mind having difficulties to adapt to it. But she never mentioned the word perimenopause (even though she is slightly older than me and might have gone through the same changes herself). Every time I tried to touch on the subject she referred me to my gynaecologist for advice! Isn’t it odd to have difficulties even with female doctors to discuss this topic?